It's Over

I've had enough of being demonized for giving a care about a particular friend. It was obvious for a few weeks that the problem was me... ever since shortly after Homecoming... But I was hoping that that would turn around.

This pain is the result of giving a damn about someone that you also wished you could help cheer up... Its taught me yet again the lesson I should have accepted Junior year instead of fighting: Don't give a care about anyone. They don't care and just stab you in the back... I guess I've always been too forgiving, and too willing to forget the past in the hopes of a better future (when there is that hope). Now the past that is coming to mind is just causing more angst..

I pretty much was the last of her "friends" who hadn't seemingly given up or said forget it when it comes to her attitude problems and emotional problems it seemed. I tried to endure, and be there as help since no one else it seemed would. But it wasn't wanted. It didn't do any good.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
...

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
...

Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
...

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
- Papa Roach "Scars"